May20
From The Culture of Counter-Culture:
One ordinarily feels that one is a separate individual in confrontation with a world that is foreign to one’s self that is “not me”. In the mystical kind of experience, though, that separate individual finds itself to be of one and the same nature or identity as the outside world. In other words, the individual suddenly no longer feels like a stranger in the world; rather, the external world feels as if it were his or her own body.
The next aspect of the mystical feeling is even more difficult to assimilate into our ordinary practical intelligence. It is the overwhelming sense that everything that happens - everything that I or anybody else has ever done - is part of a harmonious design and that there is no error at all.
Now, I am not talking about philosophy; I am not talking about a rationalization or some sort of theory that somebody cooked up in order to explain the world and make it seem a tolerable place in which to live. I am talking about a rather whimsical, unpredictable experience that suddenly hits people - an experience that includes this feeling of the total harmoniousness of everything.
I realize that those words - the total harmoniousness of everything - can carry with them a sort of sentimental or pollyanna feeling. There are various religions in our society today that try to inculcate the belief that everything is harmonious unity. They want, in a sense, to propogandize the belief that everything is harmonious.
To my mind, that is a kind of pseudomysticism. It is an attempt to make the tail wag the dog or to make the effect produce the cause - because the authentic sensation of the true harmony of things is never brought about by insisting that everything is harmonious. When you do that - when you say to yourself, “All things are light, all things are God, all things are beautiful” - you are actually implying that they are not, because you wouldn’t be saying it if you really knew it to be true.
So the sensation of universal harmony cannot come to us when it is sought or when we look for it as an escape from the way we actually feel or as compensation for the way we actually feel. It comes out of the blue. And when it does, it is overwhelmingly, convincing. It is the foundation for most of mankind’s profound philosophical, mystical, metaphysical, and religious ideas. Someone who has experienced this sort of thing cannot restrain himself. He has to get up and tell everybody about it. And, alas, he becomes the founder of religion, because people say, “Look at that man, how happy he is, what conviction he has. He has no doubts. He seems so sure in everything he does.”
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And so, in the same way when somebody has an authentic mystical experience, it just comes forth. He just has to tell everybody about it, because he notices everybody around him looking dreadfully serious. Looking as if they had a problem. Looking as if the act of living were extremely difficult. But from the standpoint of the person who has had this experience, they look funny. They don’t understand that there isn’t any problem at all.
The mystic has seen that the meaning of being alive is just to be alive… It is so plain and so obvious and so simple. And yet, everybody rushes around in a great panic as if it were necessary to achieve something beyond themselves. The funny thing is, they are not even quite sure what they need to achieve, but they are devilishly intent on achieving it.